27 is really hitting me hard.
Today I found out my first love, my only love ever, just had a baby boy. I was with him for 4 years and it was a rollercoaster. We hurt each other so much and I have never fully recovered from it. I always wanted the best for him and I am so happy to see that he is married and that now he is a dad. I just think about myself and my life and how I can’t even imagine to be in that situation. In many ways, I know that it’s for the best him and I aren’t together. I am very sure of this. I’m not sure why this made me feel something I’ve never felt before. I can’t describe it. I just know that it’s both good and bad.